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Ah there it is…….the roll of the stomach, the tightening of the muscles, that queasy feeling sneaking it’s way slowly up, the shoulders tighten and rise, while a fine sheen of sweat breaks out over my body….Soon I tell myself soon they’ll call my name, and it’s go time. Boom there it is my turn up I stand quietly whispering to myself walk straight all the while mumbling please oh please let my voice be steady when I speak oh and yeah please let me sound half way intelligent too. It’s all there all this is there rumbling through my mind my body my spirit then before I know it I’m standing front and center yet as I look up making eye contact….. a switch is flipped somewhere deep somewhere hidden and a calm radiates down over me almost like a shroud of silk slithering down over my head smoothly cascading to my toes until I am surrounded inside and out with this calm, this vibe, this feeling, no this energy this crazy amazing powerful energy. From somewhere deep comes “I own this! I totally got this in the bag”. Ha! Some crazy never go there on my own-freely- only- when- stimulated- from-an outside-source ZONE kicks in. It takes over and boom that roll in stomach fades away, those muscles ease, shoulders fall relaxed and loose, queasy what queasy, dry and comfortable, and my voice well it’s as smooth as soft as silky as melted chocolate. (Yum!) I move act speak naturally easily no thoughts no worries just me- head back shoulders squared smile so big so genuine that others around me smile in response, my stride is elongated and feminine. My feet it’s crazy I walk but don’t my feet move as is gliding along floating not touching the ground no jerky step movement just a smooth flawless gate an air of tranquility flows around me I just know if I spin in a circle a breathe of fresh air will swirl outward and around me like a beautiful grown glittering with sparkling jewels. Confident and happy more importantly at peace internally at peace a mellow flow if you will. What just happened how why how again all roll around my head fighting to be heard to be answered. It was like someone flipped a switch as simple as easy as that-flipped a switch, and I wonder to myself as that cheesy happy I got the whole world in my hand smile continues it’s hold on my face…. I wonder how- how can I bottle this feeling, this vibe, this whatever it is to have it around always because it’s worth more than gold to feel like this. Then I think it’s an energy that pumps through you out and around you when you need it or tapped into it even unknowingly. ( Which is my case heehee!) A crazy powerful beautiful loving energy making you for that split second that moment in time the perfect combo of natural confidence and streamline elegance yet warm and open easily approachable……. the perfect combo to get you through whatever needs getting through right then and there. Guess if one had it all the time every time it would lose the magic maybe maybe not (though I totally volunteer to find out and test that theory ;)), regardless though the glow the after affect of brilliance that lingers after that crazy experience certainly makes for one hell of an awesome day cheesy goofy smile and all ………………….H